I miss you???

For some reasons, I miss you....
I simply don't know why...

Even though I've met you in person only once, and as matter of fact, only for a few hours....
But I have been missing you ever since...

I have to admit, however, that I have been admiring you from far
Through your writings, thoughts, and pictures...

What is this feeling???

The urge to see you, to hear your voice, to be by your side
The urge to talk to you, to spend time with you

Nevertheless, I haven't got the courage to let you know
Or perhaps I am taking a step back to see for myself... if you share the same feeling towards me

Let this feeling slowly fade and drift far far away....
For it seems that nothing will happen

I don't know... But

What I know for sure...
Is that I miss you

What I know for sure...
Is that you are always in my mind

What I know for sure...
Is that I yearn for you

Sayonara Mac-kun...

My Macbook Pro, "Mac-kun", crashed on 31st Aug 2015 6pm AET...

For some reason it restarted itself and since then never finished loading the start up page. I have tried trouble-shooting it based on the recommendations posted online, albeit with no success. Apparently a very common issue with OS Yosemite when installed on an older machine. I updated to Yosemite about a month ago as one of the application I am using runs on this OS.

I have had the same problem previously i.e. "Mac-kun"went to sleep or restarted himself randomly, even though this was before I upgraded to Yosemite.  Thought it was something to do with the battery - Had the battery replaced, even though it didn't really prolong the overall battery life (possibly too much power to run Yosemite), but I guess it kind of solved the auto sleep/ restart problem not ...

Anyway, "Mac-kun" has been with me for about 5.5 years now. Remembered I brought him home Early 2010. Been a very wonderful companion. No complaints whatsoever until the recent incident. I guess it has been a long time indeed... Thought could persevere a bit longer with him, but Apple no longer provide support to this so called 'vintage model'...

What I found strange, however, was that in the morning when I woke up, I had this thought that flashed through my mind telling me to back up my data... (Well I usually back up and upload my data once a week - for some reason I haven't been doing this for the past month....)
Unfortunately I didn't get the chance to do so in the morning.....
Considering myself lucky, my important files were saved by my programmer friend, Hendrik, who managed to communicate with "Mac-kun" using "typical programming language" and copied my files into my external drive. Can't imagine losing one month worth of work - Note to self: back up EVERYDAY!!! 

So I bought another Macbook Pro the next day. Thank you so much my first "Mac-kun". You have been a very good friend, comrade and companion. Can't thank you enough. 

A Tad Ambitious???

There are so many new things that I would like to do on top of trying to keep up with what I am or have been up to...

Currently on my list:

• Polish my German, Japanese and Mandarin - languages simply become rusty when they are not used
• Pick up my Violin skills
• Start reading books that I have been buying since a few years ago (Been sitting on the shelves - decoration)
• Watch the documentary DVDs that (again) I purchased few years ago...
• Wrap up, complete my studies and submit my thesis - How I wish I can do this now... Life's hard as a full-time student, financial wise.

Plus new things to add on:

• Learn how to fly a plane - aiming for a commercial pilot license
• Study Chinese medicine
• Learn how to play the flute 
• Start saving up for house deposit
• Travel to a new country at least once a year - Yea right see how this contradicts the previous line...

Guess I am being greedy more than ambitious... Desiring so many things at a time, I ended up mastering none.... Pathetic huh?

Oh Well...

宿命

What come to your mind when you listen to the soundtrack from Fairy tail below?




 宿命 'Shukumei' literally translated as 'Fate'

Listening to this melody strikes me hard on my mind, my feeling, my heart, my emotion...
A sense of loneliness, solitude, despair, sorrow, and sadness overflowing
As if they are setting themselves free - like the wave of the ocean gushing over the stranded rocks

I have to admit that I am a loner but I don't like to be lonely. In fact, I hate it... I really really hate feeling lonely....
I may seem strong on the outside, yet deep inside.... I am very very fragile - just like window glasses easily shattered into pieces....

Many times I've tried opening myself up...
However, it seems futile and one-sided - Are the odds against me???

I yearn for someone.... Someone whom I can open myself to...
Someone who holds the key to my heart - As if I have locked myself up and misplaced the key......
I have been searching all this time... yet this 'person of fate' seems to be nowhere...

So called 'fate'???

Happy Chinese New Year

Wishing everyone a prosperous and auspicious Chinese New Year!!!

As explicit as it is

A vicious cycle that has been going round and round.
Tried to let go from my end, yet it bites me from the other end.
Really???

What should (or perhaps can) I do?

Literally as it is...

I know I am being sentimental...
Yet the song below by Eason Chan says it all

WHY?????

I really wonder...

Why did I decide going back to Uni again????

Could have just kept earning my $$$$$, saved up, bought a house and travelled....

Now I'm like banging my head to the wall every day... Mehhhhh

I can do this....

負けない！！！

Random Rant....

Had a dream yesterday....

Was flying as a "part-time" cabin crew with SIA on MEL-SIN flight. Apparently it was my second flight and I am based in MEL lol

Well yeap... Have been thinking of going into flying career recently for a change....
*sweat* 

Personally I love flying...  As in literally... i.e. to be on a plane... Not so much of excitement upon reaching the destination. Haha Weird  huh?

Cabin crew would be the easiest path to get into I guess....

But I reckon being a captain would be more rewarding?

I'm 27 this year... By the time I finish my degree, I would be 30.... hahaha Too old to be a cabin crew neway....

Been looking at some flying classes as well.... should perhaps work towards my private flying license than commercial license and who knows I might be on my way flying a B777 or perhaps A380 lol

***Dream On***

Work or Study?

Done my commencement panel meeting yesterday....

Start cramming for my 6 month report...

Due in Sept...

Oh Well at least I have something extra on top of keeping up with my reading....

Sometimes I wonder....

Why am I here in the first place?