Lame Joke....

A woman awakes during the night to find that her husband was not in their bed.

She puts on her dressing gown and goes downstairs to look for him.

She finds him sitting at the kitchen table with a hot cup of coffee in front of him. He appears to be in deep thought, just staring at the wall.

She watches as he wipes a tear from his eye and takes a sip of his coffee.

'What's the matter, dear?' she whispers as she steps into the room, 'Why are you down here at this time of night?'

The husband looks up from his coffee, 'I am just remembering when we first met 20 years ago and started dating. You were only 16. Do you remember back then?' he says solemnly.

The wife is touched to tears thinking that her husband is so caring, so sensitive.

'Yes, I do' she replies.

'Do you remember when your father caught us in the back seat of my car?'

The husband continues. 'Do you remember when he shoved the shotgun in my face and said, 'Either you marry my daughter, or I will send you to jail for 20 years?'

'I remember that too' she replies softly.

'I would have been released today.'

Purpose....

Everyone has his/ her own purpose to accomplish in this world....

And I know what my purpose is....

Very stupid of me to turn my back on it....

When I know that I am putting myself in deep shit....

It's like me sending havoc to destroy my very own rice field.....

I have my own purpose to serve and thats wat I am meant to do....

Until that time shows itself again, I shall do my very best and fulfil what I have brought with me all along.....

Even though with every sacrifice I have to make, because all along it never is a sacrifice at all....

Fool...

Been seeing this girl walking along Exhibition St and Bourke St Three times now....
When she approaches me, she always says "do you have any change?"
And I always ignore her.... and keep on walking....

After I left her behind, I started to think should I have given her or not?
What if she really needs some money, let's say for food?
I could have put a smile on her face, even though it's only for a while...

This happens not once but THRICE
Yet when I saw her, there is just this weird feeling telling me to ignore....
Should I or Should I not?

壓力....

三世因果不負人......

懺悔.....

懺悔.....

Haiizzzz,,,,

Feel like am having Malaise....

Wish I could just rest in peace.....

Seriously feel like Shit.... Excuse my speech...

Why at such time?

What to do?

Who is there for me?

Pitying myself.... Talking to myself....

Bekanter...

It's good to know that he is being independent and taking responsibility for his own studies.....

That he is putting every single effort into it....

Albeit it tears me down to lose one of my friends whom I only have a few and treasure like gems...

Yet, knowing that it turns out to be better for him....

is sufficient to fill my heart with joy...

Good on you!!! Do your best!!! :)

Missing Home....

All of a sudden..... There is this transient feeling of homesick....

I miss my parents....
I miss my grandparents....
I miss my friends.....
I miss my house in Medan....
I miss my bedroom....
I miss all the TV shows.... All the Taiwanese Drama my Mom and Dad always tune in everyday from 18.30 WIB.....
I miss the every Saturday Oldies Karaoke session.....
I miss my mom's cooking....
I miss the everyday breakfast..... Cha Kue Tiaw, Wan Tan Mie, Ak Bihun, Nasi Gurih, Ke Pui, Ce Pui, Huana Pui....
I miss the Kia Ca Ke session with my friends.....

Shall I go back earlier? But there are still some stuffs I want to do here.... and need to find some money for my Destination Osaka and London as well.... Can't rely everything upon my Dad....

Sigh....

Nice Taiwanese Songs..... So Touching....

Confused....

Which way to go?

ALL three look good....

ALL three are nice....

How to make up my mind?

Life is Like a Boat

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?


We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

"どおう　で　いき　お　してる　とおめい　に　なった　みたい
くだやみ　に　おもえ　だけど　めかく　しされて　ただけ”
Far away, I'm breathing, as if I were transparent
It would seem I was in the dark, but I was only blindfolded


”いのり　お　ささげて　あたらしい　ひ　お　まつ
あさやか　に　ひかる　うみ　その　はて　まで”
I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea


Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong


”ひと　の　こころ　わ　うつちゆく　むけだしてく　なる
つき　わ　まだ　あたらしい　しゅうき　で　むね　お　つれてけう”
People's hearts change and sneak away from them
The moon in its new cycle leads the boats again


And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore


Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?


I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong


”たび　た　まだ　つずいてく　おだやかな　ひ　も
つき　わ　また　あたらしい　しゅうき　で　うめ　お　てらしだす”
And still the journey continues on quiet days as well
The moon in its new cycle shines on the boats again


”いのり　お　ささげて　あたらしい　ひ　お　まつ
あさやか　に　ひかる　うみ　その　はて　まで”
I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea


And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore


”うんめい　の　ふねおこ　ぎ　なみ　わ　つぎ　から　つき　え　と　わたしたち　お　そう　けどそれ　も　すてき　な　たび　ね、どれ　も　すてき　な　たび　ね”
We are rowing the boat of fate, but the waves keep attacking us
But isn't that still a wonderful journey? Aren't any of them a wonderful journey?