Been contemplating AGAIN.... these few days... haha eventually I come out with some reasons explaining the way I do things....
I tend to keep problem to myself.... Since, I will be the only one to solve the problem and noone else would fall into the water with me...
I prefer not to let the opposite know, as this will create more trouble and dragging the simple stuff into more complicated one....
I don't usually tell them, because I am confident that I alone am able to work it out...
I would rather do it myself, so that the people, whom the problem may concern, don't have to worry about these stuffs...
Speaking stuffs out to them would make things going the hardway between us, thus might distort our relations even more....
Now that I have told them, these stuffs would need us to work together and do our parts to be solved..... which may or may not be favourable....
When one of us do not do it precisely, it may hinder the healing process or even reduce everything built so far to ashes... What I fear most is that, it might harm our friendship.... which will absolutely freak me out....
If everyone of us are willing to do it without being obliged, however, things may turn out to be even better than they were previously.... The flowers from the friendship tree may bloom.... Everyone would cherish...
Too bad that I am not a risk taker.... I would prefer playing safe...
But yea... since all have been said and done..... I just have to do my part and put my faith unto them.... hoping that the latter will reveal itself.....
Thursday 31 July 2008
Lemon Tree
Lemon tree.... Kinda oldies... Not a really good one....
Just that.....
Look at how light and bubbly her playing is....
Makes me float.....
Just that.....
Look at how light and bubbly her playing is....
Makes me float.....
Tuesday 29 July 2008
I want....
couple of stuffs that I seriously want at the moment.......
By the End of Year - Victorian Driving Licence
End of Year - Destination Sydney (Nan Tian Temple)
June/ July Next Year - Destination Japan "not sure whether it's Osaka or Tokyo"(IBYC)
December Next Year - Destination London (Pharmacy Abroad)
I can see myself spending heaps of green notes.....
Anyhow.... Shall make all of em come true.....
Therefore, It's time for SAVING..... hahaha... wonder how I am supposed to get all those big bucks.... rough estimation.... AUD 15000
wew....
By the End of Year - Victorian Driving Licence
End of Year - Destination Sydney (Nan Tian Temple)
June/ July Next Year - Destination Japan "not sure whether it's Osaka or Tokyo"(IBYC)
December Next Year - Destination London (Pharmacy Abroad)
I can see myself spending heaps of green notes.....
Anyhow.... Shall make all of em come true.....
Therefore, It's time for SAVING..... hahaha... wonder how I am supposed to get all those big bucks.... rough estimation.... AUD 15000
wew....
Monday 28 July 2008
A little story...
Once upon a time, there was a man who wasn't a good person but not a bad one as well.... He was living a good life until one day he passed away.....
Soon after, he was summoned by God. The man was stunned and appalled that God might send him to the hell, since he hasn't done much merits during his lifetime. Yet, knowing he wasn't a bad person, God let him go to the heaven. The man was excited and there he went to the heaven.
During the first couple of weeks being a residence of the heaven, the man feels the serenity and beauty of heaven. He enjoyed his time there very much. A month later however, he started to feel bored. he started to ponder why in the first place is he here? what did hell look like? Floating deep in his thoughts, he then saw an angel passing by. Soon enough he went to the angel, thinking of chatting with her to kill some time. So there he goes...
Man: Hi... Hi... Ms Angel... I'm bored. is there anything I can do?
Angel: Go and calm your mind.
Man: I've done that.... but I am still bored... Hey.. by any chance do you know if there is any shopping centre here? Let's go shopping...
Angel: We are not attached to such things here.
Man: Ow.... then what about some fancy food? Let's say Hamburger... I haven't eaten that for ages..... Shall we? Shall we?
Angel: We do not serve such food here.
Man: Pfftt.... what the heck is this? Why do I have to get stuck on this? I am not a saint or what.... I want life.... Shouldn't have came here? I should have gone to hell....
Angel: That's up to you.... That's the road to hell. We purify our mind from all worldly thoughts here.
Pissed by the angel, the man walked away and decided to go to the Hell for a little sightseeing. On his way,he saw the signs to hell and huge welcoming banner, which said:
"WELCOME TO HELL!!!!! WE'VE GOT ALL YOU WANT HERE.... CASINO, SHOPPING CENTRE, FANCY RESTAURANTS, BAR, CONDOMINIUM.... ANYTHING YOU COULD EVER THINK OF.... ENJOY YOUR TIME HERE WITH US!!!! EVERYONE IS WELCOME"
After looking at it, the man got excited.... He told himself.... Who would have guessed that hell would be a place with heaps of FUN.... It didn't look like the one described in the bible. There wasn't any flame, agony, torment, spike or whatever is written there.... Should have come here since the start... Wouldn't have wasted my time in the heaven.... So happily he made his way to the hell.... he walked faster and faster and eventually he arrived.... the gateway was massive, made from gold and diamonds..... he knocked on the door and the attendant opened it for him. Without saying anything he went through the door. As the door shut, what he saw was exactly the place depicted in the bible..... Screaming was heard everywhere, torment, devils, Agony....
He was shocked and couldn't believe what he saw. Soon he was taken away by one of the devil.... He cried and cried, but no one seemed to be bothered. He then gather up his courage and asked the devil....
Man: Why did you bring me here? I want to go the casino, the shopping centre not this place....
Devil: There isn't any here.
Man: You liar!!!! It was clearly written on the banner on my way here....
Devil: Oh... You mean that? These days you need a bit of advertisement to run the business.... Welcome to the REAL hell
Man: NOOOOOOOOOO
p.s So... things that look fabulous aren't always good ones. On the contrary, Dull stuffs may turn out to be the better ones in the end. Don't get too excited.... they may be fraud.
Soon after, he was summoned by God. The man was stunned and appalled that God might send him to the hell, since he hasn't done much merits during his lifetime. Yet, knowing he wasn't a bad person, God let him go to the heaven. The man was excited and there he went to the heaven.
During the first couple of weeks being a residence of the heaven, the man feels the serenity and beauty of heaven. He enjoyed his time there very much. A month later however, he started to feel bored. he started to ponder why in the first place is he here? what did hell look like? Floating deep in his thoughts, he then saw an angel passing by. Soon enough he went to the angel, thinking of chatting with her to kill some time. So there he goes...
Man: Hi... Hi... Ms Angel... I'm bored. is there anything I can do?
Angel: Go and calm your mind.
Man: I've done that.... but I am still bored... Hey.. by any chance do you know if there is any shopping centre here? Let's go shopping...
Angel: We are not attached to such things here.
Man: Ow.... then what about some fancy food? Let's say Hamburger... I haven't eaten that for ages..... Shall we? Shall we?
Angel: We do not serve such food here.
Man: Pfftt.... what the heck is this? Why do I have to get stuck on this? I am not a saint or what.... I want life.... Shouldn't have came here? I should have gone to hell....
Angel: That's up to you.... That's the road to hell. We purify our mind from all worldly thoughts here.
Pissed by the angel, the man walked away and decided to go to the Hell for a little sightseeing. On his way,he saw the signs to hell and huge welcoming banner, which said:
"WELCOME TO HELL!!!!! WE'VE GOT ALL YOU WANT HERE.... CASINO, SHOPPING CENTRE, FANCY RESTAURANTS, BAR, CONDOMINIUM.... ANYTHING YOU COULD EVER THINK OF.... ENJOY YOUR TIME HERE WITH US!!!! EVERYONE IS WELCOME"
After looking at it, the man got excited.... He told himself.... Who would have guessed that hell would be a place with heaps of FUN.... It didn't look like the one described in the bible. There wasn't any flame, agony, torment, spike or whatever is written there.... Should have come here since the start... Wouldn't have wasted my time in the heaven.... So happily he made his way to the hell.... he walked faster and faster and eventually he arrived.... the gateway was massive, made from gold and diamonds..... he knocked on the door and the attendant opened it for him. Without saying anything he went through the door. As the door shut, what he saw was exactly the place depicted in the bible..... Screaming was heard everywhere, torment, devils, Agony....
He was shocked and couldn't believe what he saw. Soon he was taken away by one of the devil.... He cried and cried, but no one seemed to be bothered. He then gather up his courage and asked the devil....
Man: Why did you bring me here? I want to go the casino, the shopping centre not this place....
Devil: There isn't any here.
Man: You liar!!!! It was clearly written on the banner on my way here....
Devil: Oh... You mean that? These days you need a bit of advertisement to run the business.... Welcome to the REAL hell
Man: NOOOOOOOOOO
p.s So... things that look fabulous aren't always good ones. On the contrary, Dull stuffs may turn out to be the better ones in the end. Don't get too excited.... they may be fraud.
Wednesday 23 July 2008
Why does it have to be this way?
It hurts because I feel close to you
It makes me sad because you are all I've got and sadder to know that I was betrayed and left by you, whom I truly consider as friends
It depresses me because I was never part of you after all
My other friends have their own uni stuff to do
Even though most of them are in the same uni, as far as I concern, rarely do they get as close as they were previously
They have their own goals to reach
Consequently, they spend more time with their own circle of friends from their faculties because they hold the same dream
And I believe this is reasonable since they see each other everyday, it shall make them closer and thus they share all their joys and hardships, which makes their friendship grow
We do catch up with each other, though it's only once in a blue moon....
not as often as I see you, but then it allows me to appreciate and honour my friends as they are... We didn't see each other often, yet we still could catch up.
And I cherish that, even though one of us will be leaving Mel to reach out to her dreams...
Indeed you may argue you want to see your other fren coz you don't see them as much as your uni fren...
BUT the question is, can you nurture both of them equally?
Look at what happened during the last holidays....
You don't even bother...
You can't possibly make a copy of yourself, or cut yourself into two, can you?
I don't know what you all think, but for me it's impossible to do such things
Yes, mingle with your other friends and see if your friends hang around with their uni friends as much as they do with you
CORRECT me if I am wrong!!!
Thinking of this leaves a deeper and deeper scar in my heart
After all it never exists
Such thing you called as our friendship never exists at all
You are taking me for granted
You set up a barrier between your friends
You only come to me because you still need me
Don't talk about brother
You never do such things to your brother at all....
Say I am WRONG.... dare you...
Look at how you interact with your other friends
if dats what a friend is...
Then what am I to you?
You don't treat me as you treat them
So it's clear that I never was your friend, was I?
True that I may have different interests from you
But that is not a reason to segregrate ourselves apart from studying
Assuming that I won't go ... a very likely answer to such a statement
Yet still there is no harm to ask, is there?
People may change their mind
Interest to a particular stuff doesn't grow instantaneously
It's due to support from people around you that it develops...
You learn to like it.
Did you even bother to ask? You don't
Argue with me...
Why didn't I take the initiative to do so?
I did... but wat was your response? Everytime I do so... what did I get?
Rejection.... Do you even know how it feels to be rejected?
I DO!!! and thus I try my best not to let you experience the same things
But in the end.... what?
Chances... you talk about chances....
they are always there yet you fail to seize them
Just to let you know, you've let another one pass by
Looking at how things go at the moment....
I don't think it will work....
A reminder, I am not taking back what I've said this time
Come what may
If that's how it is supposed to end, I will gladly accept it
It makes no difference anyhow
even though I may lose the battle.... at least I don't lose any more resources
You've won.....
Sadness keeps on seducing me
I don't even have the motivation to do anything
I have never been in such despair and anger before
I didn't ask much
loyal, caring and giving a sense of belonging
they are all common sense...
but which one are you?
Don't tell me you care for someone because there is a problem
if you really care, you shouldn't have let the trouble happen
This pain and agony.... after all I've said is still mine to bear...
You've won...
Needless to say.... I am the one suffering here myself....
Nevertheless, I should give you my gratitude for showing me how naive myself is.....
It makes me sad because you are all I've got and sadder to know that I was betrayed and left by you, whom I truly consider as friends
It depresses me because I was never part of you after all
My other friends have their own uni stuff to do
Even though most of them are in the same uni, as far as I concern, rarely do they get as close as they were previously
They have their own goals to reach
Consequently, they spend more time with their own circle of friends from their faculties because they hold the same dream
And I believe this is reasonable since they see each other everyday, it shall make them closer and thus they share all their joys and hardships, which makes their friendship grow
We do catch up with each other, though it's only once in a blue moon....
not as often as I see you, but then it allows me to appreciate and honour my friends as they are... We didn't see each other often, yet we still could catch up.
And I cherish that, even though one of us will be leaving Mel to reach out to her dreams...
Indeed you may argue you want to see your other fren coz you don't see them as much as your uni fren...
BUT the question is, can you nurture both of them equally?
Look at what happened during the last holidays....
You don't even bother...
You can't possibly make a copy of yourself, or cut yourself into two, can you?
I don't know what you all think, but for me it's impossible to do such things
Yes, mingle with your other friends and see if your friends hang around with their uni friends as much as they do with you
CORRECT me if I am wrong!!!
Thinking of this leaves a deeper and deeper scar in my heart
After all it never exists
Such thing you called as our friendship never exists at all
You are taking me for granted
You set up a barrier between your friends
You only come to me because you still need me
Don't talk about brother
You never do such things to your brother at all....
Say I am WRONG.... dare you...
Look at how you interact with your other friends
if dats what a friend is...
Then what am I to you?
You don't treat me as you treat them
So it's clear that I never was your friend, was I?
True that I may have different interests from you
But that is not a reason to segregrate ourselves apart from studying
Assuming that I won't go ... a very likely answer to such a statement
Yet still there is no harm to ask, is there?
People may change their mind
Interest to a particular stuff doesn't grow instantaneously
It's due to support from people around you that it develops...
You learn to like it.
Did you even bother to ask? You don't
Argue with me...
Why didn't I take the initiative to do so?
I did... but wat was your response? Everytime I do so... what did I get?
Rejection.... Do you even know how it feels to be rejected?
I DO!!! and thus I try my best not to let you experience the same things
But in the end.... what?
Chances... you talk about chances....
they are always there yet you fail to seize them
Just to let you know, you've let another one pass by
Looking at how things go at the moment....
I don't think it will work....
A reminder, I am not taking back what I've said this time
Come what may
If that's how it is supposed to end, I will gladly accept it
It makes no difference anyhow
even though I may lose the battle.... at least I don't lose any more resources
You've won.....
Sadness keeps on seducing me
I don't even have the motivation to do anything
I have never been in such despair and anger before
I didn't ask much
loyal, caring and giving a sense of belonging
they are all common sense...
but which one are you?
Don't tell me you care for someone because there is a problem
if you really care, you shouldn't have let the trouble happen
This pain and agony.... after all I've said is still mine to bear...
You've won...
Needless to say.... I am the one suffering here myself....
Nevertheless, I should give you my gratitude for showing me how naive myself is.....
Saturday 19 July 2008
Decision....
It hurts....
What shall I do?
Shall I keep on persevering?
But, it's unbearable.....
It can't be healed....
I've tried to do so thrice....
It still persists....
Shall I chuck it into the bin then?
What shall I do?
Shall I keep on persevering?
But, it's unbearable.....
It can't be healed....
I've tried to do so thrice....
It still persists....
Shall I chuck it into the bin then?
Friday 18 July 2008
Nasib
Sepi....
Senyap....
Sunyi....
Seakan menghantui diriku...
Saat Badai mengamuk....
Aku menjadi tameng dan pedang....
Saat Hujan mengguyur...
Aku menjadi payung...
Saat Badai reda...
Apa nasibku?
Saat Hujan berhenti...
Adakah orang masih menghargai payungnya?
Dijunjung dan Dicampakkan...
Bak Ombak menghanyutkan perahu...
Cahaya rembulan pudar dimakan awan
Bagaikan Sang surya meratapi hidupnya
Senyap....
Sunyi....
Seakan menghantui diriku...
Saat Badai mengamuk....
Aku menjadi tameng dan pedang....
Saat Hujan mengguyur...
Aku menjadi payung...
Saat Badai reda...
Apa nasibku?
Saat Hujan berhenti...
Adakah orang masih menghargai payungnya?
Dijunjung dan Dicampakkan...
Bak Ombak menghanyutkan perahu...
Cahaya rembulan pudar dimakan awan
Bagaikan Sang surya meratapi hidupnya
Tuesday 15 July 2008
What and Why....
What is life?
What is the purpose of my existence?
What is the reason for me to do what I am doing?
What is wrong with me?
Why is everyone born so differently?
Why do I have to go through things others don't?
Why do I have stuffs others don't?
What is the reason to crave for what you don't have?
Can anybody tell me the answers?
Or perhaps it's just me....
What is the purpose of my existence?
What is the reason for me to do what I am doing?
What is wrong with me?
Why is everyone born so differently?
Why do I have to go through things others don't?
Why do I have stuffs others don't?
What is the reason to crave for what you don't have?
Can anybody tell me the answers?
Or perhaps it's just me....
Monday 14 July 2008
Sigh....
What is this feeling?
I don't understand.....
What is going on here?
Why do I feel this way?
....
I don't understand.....
What is going on here?
Why do I feel this way?
....
Sunday 13 July 2008
Stuck in the Heart
Which one is heavier?
Iron or Steel?
When they stuck in your heart...
How are you to let them out?
What can you do to help getting them out?
When even thinking of it makes you sad...
Life is sometimes full of hardships....
Nevertheless you should always walk through it....
Since you have decided for yourself....
Can you do you par this time?
You will and that is your promise to yourself...
Iron or Steel?
When they stuck in your heart...
How are you to let them out?
What can you do to help getting them out?
When even thinking of it makes you sad...
Life is sometimes full of hardships....
Nevertheless you should always walk through it....
Since you have decided for yourself....
Can you do you par this time?
You will and that is your promise to yourself...
Uni is back....
Aghhh.... Tomorrow start uni oredy....
Why lar? When I have the chance to go for a road trip with old mates....
Duh....
Why lar? When I have the chance to go for a road trip with old mates....
Duh....
Friday 11 July 2008
Two sides of human being
Feed a child with sweets only,
and he won't appreciate what you gave him....
Feed him with bitter gourd every moment,
and he will die of hatred....
Feed him both the sweets and bitter gourd,
and he will know what life is about...
and he won't appreciate what you gave him....
Feed him with bitter gourd every moment,
and he will die of hatred....
Feed him both the sweets and bitter gourd,
and he will know what life is about...
Thursday 10 July 2008
What's this???
Sometimes I wonder....
What I have sown...
That
I reap such fruits...
It's definitely no fun at all.....
Perhaps I owed you before and thus I am to repay now...
In such a case, shall all be settled this time and not be brought forward...
What I have sown...
That
I reap such fruits...
It's definitely no fun at all.....
Perhaps I owed you before and thus I am to repay now...
In such a case, shall all be settled this time and not be brought forward...
Monday 7 July 2008
Voyage - Ayumi Hamasaki
Oh my Oh my.....
Ayumi looks so CUTE.............. when she forgot her lines.... ahahhaa
Ayumi looks so CUTE.............. when she forgot her lines.... ahahhaa
Sunday 6 July 2008
Sunday Dinner
Dinner at Han Guuk Guan with colleagues was....
Alrite
Hahaha....
The other face of pharmacists....
never knew they all have such extraordinary lives... hahha
sleeping till 11-12 when there is no work....
funny stuffs bout their significant others...
keep eating and eating
chat chat and chat...
so different from working... ha6
Alrite
Hahaha....
The other face of pharmacists....
never knew they all have such extraordinary lives... hahha
sleeping till 11-12 when there is no work....
funny stuffs bout their significant others...
keep eating and eating
chat chat and chat...
so different from working... ha6
Friday 4 July 2008
Postcards....
Writing Postcards was so.....
FUN!!!!
Haha... A bit here and there.... to my ex colleagues back home....
Can't believe there are 27 of em.... whew...
Nevertheless.... had real great time with all of em last year....
Catch ya some other time mates....
FUN!!!!
Haha... A bit here and there.... to my ex colleagues back home....
Can't believe there are 27 of em.... whew...
Nevertheless.... had real great time with all of em last year....
Catch ya some other time mates....
Thursday 3 July 2008
Melbourne was so fun....
I had no idea how the heck I spent 12 hours in Melbourne CBD yesterday...
Well.... never known Melbourne was so fun haha...
Accompanying my friends from Perth...
Walk Eat chat walk eat chat...
Seeing em again in one week time...
Well.... never known Melbourne was so fun haha...
Accompanying my friends from Perth...
Walk Eat chat walk eat chat...
Seeing em again in one week time...
I was joking yea rite... haha
Holiday is so sian man....
sigh...
Dunno wat to do eh.....
Stress.........
During uni period, assignments, exam....
STRESS.... want holidays....
now holidays are ON...
STRESS.... bo kang co.... want uni...
sigh... you busy yours
I busy mine...
but unfortunately I have nothing to be busy on....
all the sweetie words and promises before.... sigh....
always kena FFK..... Knew it all along....
when exam I want to be alone oso cannot....
after exam... I dun want oso HAVE to be alone...
dats so cool isn't it?
sigh... at the very least I knoe wat to do next time...
TA!
sigh...
Dunno wat to do eh.....
Stress.........
During uni period, assignments, exam....
STRESS.... want holidays....
now holidays are ON...
STRESS.... bo kang co.... want uni...
sigh... you busy yours
I busy mine...
but unfortunately I have nothing to be busy on....
all the sweetie words and promises before.... sigh....
always kena FFK..... Knew it all along....
when exam I want to be alone oso cannot....
after exam... I dun want oso HAVE to be alone...
dats so cool isn't it?
sigh... at the very least I knoe wat to do next time...
TA!
Walaoe... SBY marah tuh....
A friend of mine from Perth told me about a clip in youtube in which our president scolded the ministers who fell asleep during his speech.... thought he was joking but... hahhaha this is so lame man.... even worse than lecturer... XD
So cool!!!! Mr President is angry.... hahhaha No joke man.... it's on national television... hahahaha
COBA ITU, BANGUNKAN YANG TIDUR ITU.....
KALAU TIDUR DI LUAR SAJA!!!!
So cool!!!! Mr President is angry.... hahhaha No joke man.... it's on national television... hahahaha
COBA ITU, BANGUNKAN YANG TIDUR ITU.....
KALAU TIDUR DI LUAR SAJA!!!!
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