WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY?
WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY?
WHY IS EVERYTHING SO LOUSY????
Haiiizzz....
How to score well this time lar? Yer.... My results so far is not too good lor.... *DISAPPOINTED* Not to mention the whole range of units which are yet to be understood... and time is tickling even faster than usual... Tick.... Tick... Tick.. Tick. TickTickTickTickTick
Now I am imagining Dr. David Kong coming around and shouting "FAILLLLLLL"
NOOOOOO.... Now my brain is like stucked d.... the Lecture Transport Chain and Lecture Understandalisation seems to be hindered........ No notes gradient is seen... and it seems like the Lecture-Ase is leaky..... arghhhhhh
I feel sleepy and keep on craving for SLEEP.... even though I have had really enough sleep ....
Haizzzz.....
I feel like opening my head and pour all the lecture notes in manually.... so that I will remember everything.....
Just a reminder first exam to be served in NINE days......
sigh....
Oh.... currently watching Moyashimon
Give it a try... just to add more knowledge about bacteria and virus....
Monday 26 May 2008
Friday 23 May 2008
Wew....
Been looking at Sherine's Blog then I found this little link on one of her posts....
Oh well.... A distraction from Spectro...
Newai You guys be the judge....
Oh well.... A distraction from Spectro...
Newai You guys be the judge....
| What Wirawan Means |
 You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. |
Aigh....
Sometimes Anxiety is a good thing.... It helps you focus and boost your inner capacity....
BUT... why does it come so late this semester..... ARRRGHHHHH....
Stressing out when there are only TWELVE days to go.......
FIVE units to complete.....
That was heaps for a second year student..... Not to mention the cool content of each unit....
Should have start worrying weeks ago....
Haizzz... feel so dead.... Stucked with Medicinal Chem today..... Love - Love Spectroscopy.... I can't even see how it is related to my clinical life..... We are pharmacist NOT scientist.... who cares with C-H Stretch, C=O Stretch or Aromatic Ring Breath (We do care if it is fruity or ketone breath lol...)
HOW? HOW? HOW? This semester's tough man....
Keep giving myself encouragement...
Complementing myself....
BUT... why does it come so late this semester..... ARRRGHHHHH....
Stressing out when there are only TWELVE days to go.......
FIVE units to complete.....
That was heaps for a second year student..... Not to mention the cool content of each unit....
Should have start worrying weeks ago....
Haizzz... feel so dead.... Stucked with Medicinal Chem today..... Love - Love Spectroscopy.... I can't even see how it is related to my clinical life..... We are pharmacist NOT scientist.... who cares with C-H Stretch, C=O Stretch or Aromatic Ring Breath (We do care if it is fruity or ketone breath lol...)
HOW? HOW? HOW? This semester's tough man....
Keep giving myself encouragement...
Complementing myself....
SLEEP...
Sometimes I wonder.... Does Caffeine actually have effects on me?
Theoretically, Caffeine acts as an antagonist at ADP A1 receptor, blocking action of ADP, hence exerting stimulant effects.... (I knoe wats on ya mind, when ya read this... so yea keep it for yourself... XD)
BUT.... Guess what happen after my ingestion of Chocolates, Chinese Tea and Coffee.... Heaps of Caffeine..... Yet I fall asleep as soon as I lie on my bed (sometimes even when I am still sitting)..... Weird huh? Yea dats what I think.....
And the moment I go to my little dream world.... I dun feel like waking up despite my alarm going off for many times.... I just can't be bothered even though my dear housemate bangs on the wall coz my alarm wakes him up instead... What I do is that I'll give a gentle touch to my alarm and tap back on the wall and.... continue my sleep... lmao... Sad but true....
It doesn't actually annoy me, well generally... Dun get me wrong... I love sleeping... In fact I tend to have temperature when I don't fulfil my sleep quota sufficiently... It's just that I need something to keep me awake for a couple of weeks... just before EXAM... ya knoe... Acting cool, Studying heaps, Achieving the goal I've been craving for....
Pretty Troublesome... Trust me even Pseudoephedrine doesn't help at all... perhaps I should really go for Ephedrine or perhaps Dexamphetamine... ROFL....
Newai.... Looking forward to have plenty of FUN...
Theoretically, Caffeine acts as an antagonist at ADP A1 receptor, blocking action of ADP, hence exerting stimulant effects.... (I knoe wats on ya mind, when ya read this... so yea keep it for yourself... XD)
BUT.... Guess what happen after my ingestion of Chocolates, Chinese Tea and Coffee.... Heaps of Caffeine..... Yet I fall asleep as soon as I lie on my bed (sometimes even when I am still sitting)..... Weird huh? Yea dats what I think.....
And the moment I go to my little dream world.... I dun feel like waking up despite my alarm going off for many times.... I just can't be bothered even though my dear housemate bangs on the wall coz my alarm wakes him up instead... What I do is that I'll give a gentle touch to my alarm and tap back on the wall and.... continue my sleep... lmao... Sad but true....
It doesn't actually annoy me, well generally... Dun get me wrong... I love sleeping... In fact I tend to have temperature when I don't fulfil my sleep quota sufficiently... It's just that I need something to keep me awake for a couple of weeks... just before EXAM... ya knoe... Acting cool, Studying heaps, Achieving the goal I've been craving for....
Pretty Troublesome... Trust me even Pseudoephedrine doesn't help at all... perhaps I should really go for Ephedrine or perhaps Dexamphetamine... ROFL....
Newai.... Looking forward to have plenty of FUN...
Sunday 18 May 2008
Wasted...
Floating upon the water...
With no direction to head....
Swept by the current...
Without any buoy to hold onto...
Just like the maple leaf...
Falling apart from its tree....
Blown by the wind...
Not even a chance to stay back....
Unlike the rock...
Who always stands firmly...
despite the swift wave....
despite the strong cyclone...
A rock is however never a leaf
Nor is a leaf ever a rock
To make both of them together
would means making the leaf float with the rock above it...
It is perhaps a better option....
To drown instead of float...
being led solely by the current...
is just too meaningless....
With no direction to head....
Swept by the current...
Without any buoy to hold onto...
Just like the maple leaf...
Falling apart from its tree....
Blown by the wind...
Not even a chance to stay back....
Unlike the rock...
Who always stands firmly...
despite the swift wave....
despite the strong cyclone...
A rock is however never a leaf
Nor is a leaf ever a rock
To make both of them together
would means making the leaf float with the rock above it...
It is perhaps a better option....
To drown instead of float...
being led solely by the current...
is just too meaningless....
Wednesday 14 May 2008
My CRAVINGS
I want.... CHOCOLATE, POTATO CHIPS, CRACKERS, HOT (not WARM) GREEN TEA with extract of PEPPERMINT, LOTUS or ROSE, and surprisingly COFFEE......
Not too sure why.... My apetite for tit bits is growing bigger and bigger.... and what worse is..... It actually starts at NIGHT when most people are ready for bed....
Then couple of days before and throughout the exam I couldn't get this fabulous food getting into my tummy... Something's going on here... haha...
Going to fill up my stock really soon...
Not too sure why.... My apetite for tit bits is growing bigger and bigger.... and what worse is..... It actually starts at NIGHT when most people are ready for bed....
Then couple of days before and throughout the exam I couldn't get this fabulous food getting into my tummy... Something's going on here... haha...
Going to fill up my stock really soon...
Sunday 11 May 2008
Friends...
Received an Email from one of my old Friends.... thought would share it with everyone.... It sounds sweet and reminds me of the time we had together, even though things are different now... Yet, it's always a previlege to care and being cared...
number of quotes in the email... Here they go...
number of quotes in the email... Here they go...
i. Life's rule no. 1 : You are never too busy to keep in touch with an old friend
ii. When u and I are together, even tough things become so easy
iii. I'm always here if you need me
iv. Friends are those who help you to say CHEESE....
v. Friends are to play pranks Together without getting caught
vi. Friends are to fight with each other and for each other
vii. Friends are to gossip together on any topic
viii. Friends are those who think and care about you when you far away from them
ix. The word HELLO means....
H=How are you?
E=Everything all right?
L=Like to hear from you
L=Love to see you soon
O=Obviously I miss you....Sometimes they are just too sweet, aren't they? But worth remembering and trying
I reckon...
Saturday 10 May 2008
A Mother...
Mom, I am grateful to you
For nurturing me up till now....
For all your love, education and kindness you provide me with...
For your concern and being worried when I am not by your side...
For all the care you give, which I am or not aware of...
I understand that I wouldn't be able to return all the kindness you have given....
But one thing I can assure you off... your harship in rearing me wouldn't be in vain...
Thanks Mom.... Love you....
Ten Types of Kindness a Mother Bestowed upon her Children
1. The Kindness Of Providing Protection And Care While The Child Is In The Womb
The causes and conditions from accumulated kalpas grows heavy, Until in this life the child ends up in its mother womb. As the months pass, the five vital organs develop; Within seven weeks the six sense organs start to grow. The mother's body becomes as heavy as a mountain; The stillness and movements of the foetus are like a kalpic wild disaster. The mother's fine clothes no longer hang properly, And so her mirror gathers dust.
2. The Kindness Of Bearing Suffering During Birth
The pregnancy lasts for ten lunar months, And culminates in difficult labour at the approach of the birth. Meanwhile, each morning the mother is seriously ill. And during everyday is drowsy and sluggish. Her fear and agitation are difficult to describe; Grieving and tears fill her breast. She painfully tells her family that she is only afraid that death will overtake her.
3. The Kindness Of Forgetting All The Pain Once The Child Has Been Born
On the day the compassionate mother bears the child, Her five organs all open wide, Leaving her totally exhausted in body and mind. The blood flows as from a slaughtered lamb; Yet, upon hearing that the child is healthy, She is overcome with redoubling joy, But after the joy, the grief returns, And the agony wrenches her very insides.
4. The Kindness Of Eating The Bitter Herself And Saving The Sweet For The Child
The kindness of both parents is profound and deep, Their care and devotion never cease. Never resting, the mother saves the sweet for the child, And without complaint she swallows the bitter herself. Her love is weighty and her emotion difficult to bear; her kindness is deep and so is her compassion. Only wanting the child to get its fill, The compassionate mother doesn't speak of her own hunger.
5. The Kindness Of Moving The Child To A Dry Place And Lying In The Wet Herself
The mother is willing to be wet so that the child can be dry. With her two breasts she satisfies its Hunger and thirst; Covering it with her sleeve, she protects it from the wind and cold. In the kindness, her head rarely rests on the pillow, And yet she does this happily. So long as the child is comfortable, The kind mother seeks no solace for herself.
6. The Kindness Of Suckling The Child At Her Breast And Nourishing And Bringing Up The Child
The kind mother is like the great earth. The stern father is like the encompassing heaven: One covers from above; the other supports from below. The kindness of parents is such that They know no hatred or anger toward their offspring, And are not displeased, even if the child is born crippled. After the mother carries the child in her womb and gives birth to it, The parents care for and protect it together until the end of their days.
7. The Kindness Of Washing Away The Unclean
Originally she had a pretty face and a beautiful body, Her spirit was strong and vibrant, Her eyebrows were like fresh green willows, And her complexion would have put a rose to shame. But her kindness is so deep she will forego a beautiful face. Although washing away the filth injuries her constitution, The kind mother acts solely for the sake of her sons and daughters And willingly allows her beauty to fade.
8. The Kindness Of Always Thinking Of The Child When It Has Travelled Far
The death of loved ones is difficult to endure. But separation is also painful. When the child travels afar, The mother worries in her village. From morning until night, her heart is with her child, And a thousand tears fall from her eyes. Like the monkey weeping silently in love for her child, Bit-by-bit her heart is broken.
9. The Kindness Of Deep Care And Devotion
How heavy is the parent's kindness and emotional concern! Their kindness is deep and difficult to repay. Willingly they undergo suffering on their child's behalf. If the child toils, the parents are uncomfortable. If they hear that he has travelled afar, They worry that at night he will have to lie in the cold. Even a moment's pain suffered by their sons or daughters Will cause the parents sustained distress.
10. The Kindness Of Ultimate Pity And Sympathy
The kindness of parents is profound and important. Their tender concern never ceases. From the moment they awake each day, their thoughts are with their children. Whether the children are near or far away, the parents think of them often. Even if a mother lives for a hundred years, She will constantly worry about her eighty-year-old child! Do you wish to know when such kindness and love ends? It doesn't even begin to dissipate until her life is over.
An excerpt from 佛说父母恩重难保经
For nurturing me up till now....
For all your love, education and kindness you provide me with...
For your concern and being worried when I am not by your side...
For all the care you give, which I am or not aware of...
I understand that I wouldn't be able to return all the kindness you have given....
But one thing I can assure you off... your harship in rearing me wouldn't be in vain...
Thanks Mom.... Love you....
Ten Types of Kindness a Mother Bestowed upon her Children
1. The Kindness Of Providing Protection And Care While The Child Is In The Womb
The causes and conditions from accumulated kalpas grows heavy, Until in this life the child ends up in its mother womb. As the months pass, the five vital organs develop; Within seven weeks the six sense organs start to grow. The mother's body becomes as heavy as a mountain; The stillness and movements of the foetus are like a kalpic wild disaster. The mother's fine clothes no longer hang properly, And so her mirror gathers dust.
2. The Kindness Of Bearing Suffering During Birth
The pregnancy lasts for ten lunar months, And culminates in difficult labour at the approach of the birth. Meanwhile, each morning the mother is seriously ill. And during everyday is drowsy and sluggish. Her fear and agitation are difficult to describe; Grieving and tears fill her breast. She painfully tells her family that she is only afraid that death will overtake her.
3. The Kindness Of Forgetting All The Pain Once The Child Has Been Born
On the day the compassionate mother bears the child, Her five organs all open wide, Leaving her totally exhausted in body and mind. The blood flows as from a slaughtered lamb; Yet, upon hearing that the child is healthy, She is overcome with redoubling joy, But after the joy, the grief returns, And the agony wrenches her very insides.
4. The Kindness Of Eating The Bitter Herself And Saving The Sweet For The Child
The kindness of both parents is profound and deep, Their care and devotion never cease. Never resting, the mother saves the sweet for the child, And without complaint she swallows the bitter herself. Her love is weighty and her emotion difficult to bear; her kindness is deep and so is her compassion. Only wanting the child to get its fill, The compassionate mother doesn't speak of her own hunger.
5. The Kindness Of Moving The Child To A Dry Place And Lying In The Wet Herself
The mother is willing to be wet so that the child can be dry. With her two breasts she satisfies its Hunger and thirst; Covering it with her sleeve, she protects it from the wind and cold. In the kindness, her head rarely rests on the pillow, And yet she does this happily. So long as the child is comfortable, The kind mother seeks no solace for herself.
6. The Kindness Of Suckling The Child At Her Breast And Nourishing And Bringing Up The Child
The kind mother is like the great earth. The stern father is like the encompassing heaven: One covers from above; the other supports from below. The kindness of parents is such that They know no hatred or anger toward their offspring, And are not displeased, even if the child is born crippled. After the mother carries the child in her womb and gives birth to it, The parents care for and protect it together until the end of their days.
7. The Kindness Of Washing Away The Unclean
Originally she had a pretty face and a beautiful body, Her spirit was strong and vibrant, Her eyebrows were like fresh green willows, And her complexion would have put a rose to shame. But her kindness is so deep she will forego a beautiful face. Although washing away the filth injuries her constitution, The kind mother acts solely for the sake of her sons and daughters And willingly allows her beauty to fade.
8. The Kindness Of Always Thinking Of The Child When It Has Travelled Far
The death of loved ones is difficult to endure. But separation is also painful. When the child travels afar, The mother worries in her village. From morning until night, her heart is with her child, And a thousand tears fall from her eyes. Like the monkey weeping silently in love for her child, Bit-by-bit her heart is broken.
9. The Kindness Of Deep Care And Devotion
How heavy is the parent's kindness and emotional concern! Their kindness is deep and difficult to repay. Willingly they undergo suffering on their child's behalf. If the child toils, the parents are uncomfortable. If they hear that he has travelled afar, They worry that at night he will have to lie in the cold. Even a moment's pain suffered by their sons or daughters Will cause the parents sustained distress.
10. The Kindness Of Ultimate Pity And Sympathy
The kindness of parents is profound and important. Their tender concern never ceases. From the moment they awake each day, their thoughts are with their children. Whether the children are near or far away, the parents think of them often. Even if a mother lives for a hundred years, She will constantly worry about her eighty-year-old child! Do you wish to know when such kindness and love ends? It doesn't even begin to dissipate until her life is over.
An excerpt from 佛说父母恩重难保经
Thursday 8 May 2008
HeartBurn...
Haizz.... I am currently experiencing the so called Heartburn..... Well not my heart was literally burnt.... but somehow it is.... : (
Newai... the heartburn I referred to has a more cool name, GastroOesophagealRefluxDisorder (GORD).... How cool was that?
Wonder what I've eaten... that my acid was secreted in such a huge amount.... or perhaps is it because of the meal I took before bed? But it can't be helped... I mean... I was hungry.... haizzz... Staying up late needs energy too ya know?
Been having this for like three weeks... but the symptoms was kinda on and off.... Also I can't take my favourite spicy food at the moment... as it would exacerbate the condition.... argghhhh.....
Currently on Zantac 150 mg tab 1 d. prn.
Newai... the heartburn I referred to has a more cool name, GastroOesophagealRefluxDisorder (GORD).... How cool was that?
Wonder what I've eaten... that my acid was secreted in such a huge amount.... or perhaps is it because of the meal I took before bed? But it can't be helped... I mean... I was hungry.... haizzz... Staying up late needs energy too ya know?
Been having this for like three weeks... but the symptoms was kinda on and off.... Also I can't take my favourite spicy food at the moment... as it would exacerbate the condition.... argghhhh.....
Currently on Zantac 150 mg tab 1 d. prn.
Saturday 3 May 2008
Tagged #1
The rules:-
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules. Xin Yu
2. List eight (8) random facts about yourself.
3. Tag eight people at the end of this post and list their names, where possible.
4. Let them know they’ve been tagged by leaving them a comment on their blogs.
i. I love dark chocolate, especially the classy one with smooth taste slowly indulging my tastebuds... Lindt, Merci, Ernest Hillier, Côte d'Or, Guylian.... You name it... Also the bitter the better...
ii. I love chinese cooking and tend to precipitate strong taste in my dishes.
iii. I love books.... not reading.... I love buying and putting them on my shelves :p
iv. Pretty much a conventional guy lacking sense of Fashion....
v. Particular interest in Drugs, Herbs and disease states.
vi. Do and take things seriously, but I have my own beat and rythm in considering things and making a decision. Once it's reached, dats it...
vii. Strive to be perfect and most of the time Have a very high expectation on everything...
viii. Tend to listen to other people yet very unlikely to have a say, unless I think it's necessary and other people do want to know.
Tagged #2 - Xin Yu
1. How many children do you want?
- Two is enough. Ideally a boy and a Girl but two boys are pretty good as well.
2. What do you want the most now?
- Doing well in my study i.e graduating with first class honours.
3. What do you want to be when you grow up?
- A successful pharmacist owning his own pharmacy, husband and parent dedicating his life to the benefits of the community.
4. If you can have one more dream come true, what would it be?
- Every single person to have access to food, water, clothes and housing.
5. What are you afraid to lose now?
- Parents, family, friends...
6. Do you believe in being in love forever?
- Nope...
7. If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
- I would confess only and after I am 100% sure that she is the one.
8. What would you do when you're feeling down and depressed.
- Being on my own... reflecting on stuffs happening and what I could do to counter the situations.
9. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
- simple. A person who can be a good mother,looking after and educating our children, and filial to both her and my parents.
10. Which type of person do you hate the most?
- a person who talks and shows off a lot, when what he's done is just making fool of himself... Pity him...
11. Do you cherish every single of your friendships?
- Yep. I make friends only with a few people. Thus, I would value and dedicate myself to those I consider as my friends.
12. Do you believe in God?
- Nope
13. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- Family, Friends, dedications
14. Do you find it necessary for you to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
- Preferably yes. would like to go through another level of life.
15. What do you want your friends to be like?
- loyal, caring and those who consider me as part of them.
16. What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friends' eyes?
- loyal, caring, generous, sincere, welcoming.
17. If you can have a change, which part of your character would you like to change?
- The introvert me... just a little touch of extrovert would be really great.
18. If you're feeling low one day, who will you go to?
- Myself
19. Would you die in order to save the ones you love?
- Nope. Death would only bring sorrow and hardship to those left behind. I don't think she would want that as well. Instead, I would go through another direction to save my beloved one... both living on would be the better option.
20. What influence you walking down the path of life you are at now?
- My innerself, conscience and devotions.
Instructions: Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question to make it a total of 20 questions. Then tag 8 people in your links list at the end of the post, where possible. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.
Chu Jie
jamie
Jia Hong
Lynn
Sherine
The rules:-
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules. Xin Yu
2. List eight (8) random facts about yourself.
3. Tag eight people at the end of this post and list their names, where possible.
4. Let them know they’ve been tagged by leaving them a comment on their blogs.
i. I love dark chocolate, especially the classy one with smooth taste slowly indulging my tastebuds... Lindt, Merci, Ernest Hillier, Côte d'Or, Guylian.... You name it... Also the bitter the better...
ii. I love chinese cooking and tend to precipitate strong taste in my dishes.
iii. I love books.... not reading.... I love buying and putting them on my shelves :p
iv. Pretty much a conventional guy lacking sense of Fashion....
v. Particular interest in Drugs, Herbs and disease states.
vi. Do and take things seriously, but I have my own beat and rythm in considering things and making a decision. Once it's reached, dats it...
vii. Strive to be perfect and most of the time Have a very high expectation on everything...
viii. Tend to listen to other people yet very unlikely to have a say, unless I think it's necessary and other people do want to know.
Tagged #2 - Xin Yu
1. How many children do you want?
- Two is enough. Ideally a boy and a Girl but two boys are pretty good as well.
2. What do you want the most now?
- Doing well in my study i.e graduating with first class honours.
3. What do you want to be when you grow up?
- A successful pharmacist owning his own pharmacy, husband and parent dedicating his life to the benefits of the community.
4. If you can have one more dream come true, what would it be?
- Every single person to have access to food, water, clothes and housing.
5. What are you afraid to lose now?
- Parents, family, friends...
6. Do you believe in being in love forever?
- Nope...
7. If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
- I would confess only and after I am 100% sure that she is the one.
8. What would you do when you're feeling down and depressed.
- Being on my own... reflecting on stuffs happening and what I could do to counter the situations.
9. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
- simple. A person who can be a good mother,looking after and educating our children, and filial to both her and my parents.
10. Which type of person do you hate the most?
- a person who talks and shows off a lot, when what he's done is just making fool of himself... Pity him...
11. Do you cherish every single of your friendships?
- Yep. I make friends only with a few people. Thus, I would value and dedicate myself to those I consider as my friends.
12. Do you believe in God?
- Nope
13. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- Family, Friends, dedications
14. Do you find it necessary for you to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
- Preferably yes. would like to go through another level of life.
15. What do you want your friends to be like?
- loyal, caring and those who consider me as part of them.
16. What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friends' eyes?
- loyal, caring, generous, sincere, welcoming.
17. If you can have a change, which part of your character would you like to change?
- The introvert me... just a little touch of extrovert would be really great.
18. If you're feeling low one day, who will you go to?
- Myself
19. Would you die in order to save the ones you love?
- Nope. Death would only bring sorrow and hardship to those left behind. I don't think she would want that as well. Instead, I would go through another direction to save my beloved one... both living on would be the better option.
20. What influence you walking down the path of life you are at now?
- My innerself, conscience and devotions.
Instructions: Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question to make it a total of 20 questions. Then tag 8 people in your links list at the end of the post, where possible. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.
Chu Jie
jamie
Jia Hong
Lynn
Sherine
Friday 2 May 2008
My-Emo-self
Terkadang aku tidak mengerti....
Mengapa ada sebuah perasaan yang tidak dapat dijelaskan....
Merasa sendiri dan diabaikan orang lain....
Merasa diri sendiri sebagai orang asing....
Namun tidak dapat dipungkiri kalau kita sangat dekat....
Jarak bukanlah masalah...
Duduk bersama setiap hari....
Berjalan bersama setiap hari....
Akan tetapi, mengapa ini yang terjadi....
Hati kita tidak pernah bersama....
Disapa hanya jika diperlukan....
Bersama hanya untuk urusan sekolah....
Mengapa?
Tidak bisakah kita bersama sewaktu bermain?
Mengapa?
Hanya harus pada saat belajar kita bersama?
Saat engkau membutuhkanku...
Jawabanku selalu iya...
Namun jika saya membutuhkan engkau...
Apakah jawaban engkau?
Bukanlah yang pertama kali....
Sepertinya juga bukan yang terakhir...
Apakah susah untuk mengajak seseorang beraktivitas bersama?
Apakah susah saling menyapa dan bersua?
Orang-orang bersabda....
Teman hadir memang untuk digunakan dan diperalat...
Apakah masalahnya terletak pada diriku sendiri?
Yang hanya bersedia digunakan namun enggan menggunakan?
Tetapi bukan begini mauku....
Dijunjung saat berguna...
Dicampakkan saat tidak diperlukan....
Kemudian dimohon saat dibutuhkan....
Perbedaan.....
Apa yang membuat kita berbeda?
Kita telah saling kenal untuk waktu yang cukup lama....
Akan tetapi Mengapa ini yang terjadi?
Sesungguhnya aku benar-benar tidak mengerti
Apakah ini karena diriku sendiri yang terlalu banyak pikiran?
Namun apakah mereka sama sekali tidak pernah berpikir?
Apakah memang ini nasibku?
Apakah ada yang namanya teman sejati?
Yang ada hanyalah teman yang memperalat...
Mungkin ini adalah kebodohanku sendiri...
Namun apa yang bisa kuperbuat...
Adakah yang bisa memberitahukan jawabannya kepadaku....
Aku Bertanya bertanya dan bertanya...
Sayangnya yang terdengar hanyalah suara bisikan angin...
Yang juga menertawakan kebodohanku...
Mengapa ada sebuah perasaan yang tidak dapat dijelaskan....
Merasa sendiri dan diabaikan orang lain....
Merasa diri sendiri sebagai orang asing....
Namun tidak dapat dipungkiri kalau kita sangat dekat....
Jarak bukanlah masalah...
Duduk bersama setiap hari....
Berjalan bersama setiap hari....
Akan tetapi, mengapa ini yang terjadi....
Hati kita tidak pernah bersama....
Disapa hanya jika diperlukan....
Bersama hanya untuk urusan sekolah....
Mengapa?
Tidak bisakah kita bersama sewaktu bermain?
Mengapa?
Hanya harus pada saat belajar kita bersama?
Saat engkau membutuhkanku...
Jawabanku selalu iya...
Namun jika saya membutuhkan engkau...
Apakah jawaban engkau?
Bukanlah yang pertama kali....
Sepertinya juga bukan yang terakhir...
Apakah susah untuk mengajak seseorang beraktivitas bersama?
Apakah susah saling menyapa dan bersua?
Orang-orang bersabda....
Teman hadir memang untuk digunakan dan diperalat...
Apakah masalahnya terletak pada diriku sendiri?
Yang hanya bersedia digunakan namun enggan menggunakan?
Tetapi bukan begini mauku....
Dijunjung saat berguna...
Dicampakkan saat tidak diperlukan....
Kemudian dimohon saat dibutuhkan....
Perbedaan.....
Apa yang membuat kita berbeda?
Kita telah saling kenal untuk waktu yang cukup lama....
Akan tetapi Mengapa ini yang terjadi?
Tiada yang salah dengan perbedaan
Dan segala yang kita punya
Yang salah hanyalah sudut pandang kita
Yang membuat kita terpisah
Karna tak seharusnya
Perbedaan menjadi jurang
Bukankah kita diciptakan
Untuk dapat saling melengkapi
Mengapa ini yang terjadi?
Mestinya perbedaan bukan alasan
Untuk tak saling memahami
Harusnya kita bisa memberi jalan
Tuk satukan semua harapanKarna tak seharusnya
Perbedaan menjadi jurang
Bukankah kita diciptakan
Untuk dapat saling melengkapi
Mengapa ini yang terjadi?
Sesungguhnya aku benar-benar tidak mengerti
Apakah ini karena diriku sendiri yang terlalu banyak pikiran?
Namun apakah mereka sama sekali tidak pernah berpikir?
Apakah memang ini nasibku?
Apakah ada yang namanya teman sejati?
Yang ada hanyalah teman yang memperalat...
Mungkin ini adalah kebodohanku sendiri...
Namun apa yang bisa kuperbuat...
Adakah yang bisa memberitahukan jawabannya kepadaku....
Aku Bertanya bertanya dan bertanya...
Sayangnya yang terdengar hanyalah suara bisikan angin...
Yang juga menertawakan kebodohanku...
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