有誰可以告訴我？？？？

許諾與緣分與因緣的關係是甚麼？？？？

那“愛”這一個字是甚麼？？？
















我自己也不曉得。。。

前世今生的因緣。。。。

該怎麼樣去解決？

有甚麼方法去改變？？

難道這樣就把它放棄？？？

我只懂我的心一直期待。。。。

不停得盼望。。。

What to do???

Wahsehhhh

So Cia Lat..... I dunno what to do already.... The scale seems to weigh towards one side and I can't even balance it up >.<

Dunno how lehhhh....

Should I just let it go?
This is just so complicated =(



我與你 － Soundtrack from the movie Three Peas in a Pod

六哲

Came across 六哲's songs in youtube this afternoon....

Didn't know who he was previously, accidentally stumbled upon him

I think I'm fond of him now....

All his songs are just so emotional..... Fit in perfectly.... Is it just me?

Neway it just kinda connects... The lyrics, The melody....

It's like they are telling all the story on my behalf...

Guess will be sleeping with them tonight....

YOU!!!!

Not too sure what's got into me....

Maybe it's just a sign that I am ageing....

Solitude? Loneliness? Sorrow?

It's like a part of me is missing....

Haizzz.....

Not a first time nor will it be the last....

So can anyone just tell me

WHO and WHERE THIS PERSON IS???

Could you please just disclose yourself???

Haiz Pathetic me....

I'll be waiting for you....

因緣

Talking to one of my friends just now and he left me with the word "FATE"

This keeps me my mind going for a while

It is just so unbelievable, how people meet each other...

I couldn't understand myself...

Why is it when I see someone for the first time, it feels as if I know that person??? As if he/she looks so familiar and I feel that I have met him/her somewhere before even though I haven't.

Why is it when I first meet a stranger, I think that we could go along so well? or even worse I feel like he/she is so annoying? Note that this "stereotyping" is still in the thinking process and most of the time, it turns out to exactly as the mind has predicted...

quoting from a Chinese oldies, 渡情

有緣千年來相會， 無緣對面手難牽



It is just too mesmerizing, how this so called fate works.....




I do think that Fate is only a small part of relationship and input from both parties are required to make it work.
Just like planting a tree.... Seedling is the analogy for fate and to make it grow we need a lot to plant, water and nurture it.

I guess will have to appreciate the relationship with every person that I have known, am knowing and yet to know....  For it does not come about easily and once this so called "Fate" slips through it may take a while before the next encounter...

Continuing on the lyrics...

十年修得同船渡
百年修得共枕眠
若是千年有造化
白首同心在眼前

幸福是甚麼？？？

這是孤單的滋味嗎？？？
難道我只是需要人陪嗎？？？
想起當初一個人過日子，有多麼自由自在。。。

而現在呢？ 怎麼回不到以前那個好日子？？？
都怪自己太天真吧。。。
結果最痛最傷心也只有自己。。。

我的幸福在那裡呢？？？

Complicated or Complications???

Been feeling kinda uneasy since the past few days...

Physically:

Palpitation, Tremor, Flushes Blushes

Oh Well definitely NOT a heart attack...

Plus still CAN'T CALM my mind down

As if I've just loaded myself with huge doses of 5HT

Warning: Serotonin Syndrome

This MIXED feeling Haizzz....

Oh Well....

Hoping for the best at this stage,,,

Only time will tell, I guess
 

Reborn!!!

FIVE years since my last post, a lot have happened for sure....
Career wise....
Obtained my Bachelor degree in 2010, past my registration exam the year after, started working real hard and trained an intern up until end of last year.

Time does fly... My trainee back then is now a qualified professional. I Ended up quitting my full time job and ventured back into uni, thinking to get into the academia sector. It's a bit of a trade off though considering the amount of money I would have earned, had I kept my job. But then again, for a better future and for the sake of reaching out to my dreams, I guess a change is good.

So yep... third month into my study now. What to expect? Information overload, twisted brain, busy buzzy, what else? First month even worse trying to adjust from working life to that of student.... Now I guess m getting the rhythm back...

My love life is just as exciting... I wish....
Unfortunately it did not turn out well... Sigh....  Won't go into the details but it's just hard to find the right person amidst the vast ocean.... Up and down like a yo-yo... So depressing man...  Having said that though, a few of my schoolmates are actually married and even had children... So yep kind of unpredictable I guess....
A few days back however, somebody keeps on popping on my mind. out of no where.... So Random!!!! Ok Fine I did read one of my friends' blog and went into the links on the page. What surprises me is that I dun even know that person, but somehow this thought keeps on resurfacing and bothering me... Even at this very moment..... So cia lat man.... Really weird.... My mind is jumping around like monkey now... hou geng hor that someone =.=!! sigh..

What else....
Oh.. recently I know another someone, who claimed to be or is said to be so like me... I was like mehhh.... Really r got Replica of me now... haha But I guess we do have so many things in common, personality wise... and I find it quite surprising myself to be able to click so well with him, who was then a Mr Stranger. Not to mention the "special" approach we took to forge this friendship and get along... (If you are reading this,,, No Offence lol). But I am glad to have known him. Seriously....  Appreciate it....

Also did a fair bit of travelling around Asia since I started working full time... Been doing it solo all along... so boring hor? Maybe it's just my antisocial side... hahah Another one coming up end of this month.... Destination Taiwan... Again!!! Fallen in love with that place =)

Oh Well... That's all for now I guess,,, Shall post again when there are more exciting stuffs available.

关于你的歌。。。

很想说。。。

Should I???

But Then....

I'm worried that I wouldn't be able to look after you.....

And I would not be able to forgive myself if that happens.....

How???

A Dilemma.....

Friend or "Friend" ?????

Seriously which one do would you choose??????

Haizzz....

This or That

Talking about Future....

Thinking about Further Education.....

Thought of doing PhD....

But then Miss Pharmacist said it would suit me best and would pay off better if I do MBBS on top of B.Pharm..... I've got what it takes and it would be a waste if I only stay in retail Pharmacy.... Clinical environment is better for me. hmm...

Why would I want a PhD???? - For the sake of the degree???? Academic sector???

MBBS on the other hand.... CLINICAL Exposure!!!! PLUS in depth DRUGS knowledge(From B.Pharm)!!!!However am not very good with my hands....

But thats what I love most..... Even in pharmacy, the clinical aspect appeals me most.... not only the unit we are doing at the moment but also during the real life application....


Think... Think... Think....

Yea and forget about the present....
><

As said...

Daisy....

Little seedling slumbers in the ground
Unnoticed until ages passed
Summer comes, sun shining red
Awaken smiling to the world


Afar come four strangers
Away three foreign lands
And soon are Acquaintances
Amidst the seedling grows


Calmness, Generosity, Initiative and Joy
serenade all over the sky
Little Seedling, little Daisy
Flower blooms, seasons of smiley


Autumn breeze chills the root
Little daisy holds on tight
Silent gale blows undercoat
In the sky petals soar about


The daisy, four fellows believe
Trust, hope, wish and care
Days passed, mature was then little
Fruit emerges from the node


Winter comes, Lightnings struck
Pain, agony, and deceit click
Heaven knows does the earth crack
Storm released fellowships creak


Unable to stand, the fellows perish
Break apart and severely clash
Nothing left but the new seedling sheath
Flows with time shall the daisy rebirth

To Love You More.....

Dedicated to Somebody out there.......






Will be waiting for you.....
Until we meet again =)

Memory...

Went through old pictures just now....

Looked at this one











Then came across this poem (if that's what you call it... otherwise they are mere sentences)

It says:

Friends come and Friends go
The Seasons change
The Seasons will show
They will age
And so will Us
But our Friendship stays
Strong and
True
...

Dunno who made this poem here.... but it is called "The Moment"....



Ha6.... Can't believe it has been THREE AND A HALF YEARS since highschool....
Wonder how everyone is doing....



A chapter of our lives has ended.... Everyone has to keep on moving forward.... Yet everything we've gone through is surely memorable.....
Whether Good, Fun, Joyous, Not so Good, Sorrowful, Rowdy or even quarrelsome.....
They are mere memoirs.....



Similarly what's on the current chapter is also the same.....
You can't expect everyone to be with you forever....
The power of impermanence sure is freaky....
The moments shared together are only remnants....
Mere remnants and nothing else....
Good to recall but not to be craved for....

Confusing? Probably....

Haha....

Recently, I find myself craving for stuffs too easily.....

Well stuff is not an appropriate word.....

Aber weiß ich nicht was eigentlich das richtige Wort ist....

Mädchen vielleicht?

Doch....

Finde ich aber jede attraktiv ist und wann ich sie besser kenne......

Ich denke mich daß sie paßt mich nicht.....

Also....

What can I do? haha

In short it's like "panas-panas taik ayam"

lol

Tapi ya apa boleh buat namanya juga belum ada yang cocok.....

><

Perhaps....

Perhaps it is NOT for me....

I wonder....

Keep looking.....

Keep searching......

Tummy....

During the exams....

I think my tummy has really gone kaputt....

Couldn't believe I actually took 10 Nexium 20mg and 7 Zantac 150mg in the last two weeks...

Geez.....

Have to reset my tummy all over now.....

Hopefully it is still reversible....

QUM!!!

Haizzz