A Tad Ambitious???

There are so many new things that I would like to do on top of trying to keep up with what I am or have been up to...

Currently on my list:

• Polish my German, Japanese and Mandarin - languages simply become rusty when they are not used
• Pick up my Violin skills
• Start reading books that I have been buying since a few years ago (Been sitting on the shelves - decoration)
• Watch the documentary DVDs that (again) I purchased few years ago...
• Wrap up, complete my studies and submit my thesis - How I wish I can do this now... Life's hard as a full-time student, financial wise.

Plus new things to add on:

• Learn how to fly a plane - aiming for a commercial pilot license
• Study Chinese medicine
• Learn how to play the flute 
• Start saving up for house deposit
• Travel to a new country at least once a year - Yea right see how this contradicts the previous line...

Guess I am being greedy more than ambitious... Desiring so many things at a time, I ended up mastering none.... Pathetic huh?

Oh Well...

宿命

What come to your mind when you listen to the soundtrack from Fairy tail below?




 宿命 'Shukumei' literally translated as 'Fate'

Listening to this melody strikes me hard on my mind, my feeling, my heart, my emotion...
A sense of loneliness, solitude, despair, sorrow, and sadness overflowing
As if they are setting themselves free - like the wave of the ocean gushing over the stranded rocks

I have to admit that I am a loner but I don't like to be lonely. In fact, I hate it... I really really hate feeling lonely....
I may seem strong on the outside, yet deep inside.... I am very very fragile - just like window glasses easily shattered into pieces....

Many times I've tried opening myself up...
However, it seems futile and one-sided - Are the odds against me???

I yearn for someone.... Someone whom I can open myself to...
Someone who holds the key to my heart - As if I have locked myself up and misplaced the key......
I have been searching all this time... yet this 'person of fate' seems to be nowhere...

So called 'fate'???