宿命

What come to your mind when you listen to the soundtrack from Fairy tail below?




 宿命 'Shukumei' literally translated as 'Fate'

Listening to this melody strikes me hard on my mind, my feeling, my heart, my emotion...
A sense of loneliness, solitude, despair, sorrow, and sadness overflowing
As if they are setting themselves free - like the wave of the ocean gushing over the stranded rocks

I have to admit that I am a loner but I don't like to be lonely. In fact, I hate it... I really really hate feeling lonely....
I may seem strong on the outside, yet deep inside.... I am very very fragile - just like window glasses easily shattered into pieces....

Many times I've tried opening myself up...
However, it seems futile and one-sided - Are the odds against me???

I yearn for someone.... Someone whom I can open myself to...
Someone who holds the key to my heart - As if I have locked myself up and misplaced the key......
I have been searching all this time... yet this 'person of fate' seems to be nowhere...

So called 'fate'???

Happy Chinese New Year

Wishing everyone a prosperous and auspicious Chinese New Year!!!

As explicit as it is

A vicious cycle that has been going round and round.
Tried to let go from my end, yet it bites me from the other end.
Really???

What should (or perhaps can) I do?

Literally as it is...

I know I am being sentimental...
Yet the song below by Eason Chan says it all

WHY?????

I really wonder...

Why did I decide going back to Uni again????

Could have just kept earning my $$$$$, saved up, bought a house and travelled....

Now I'm like banging my head to the wall every day... Mehhhhh

I can do this....

負けない！！！

Random Rant....

Had a dream yesterday....

Was flying as a "part-time" cabin crew with SIA on MEL-SIN flight. Apparently it was my second flight and I am based in MEL lol

Well yeap... Have been thinking of going into flying career recently for a change....
*sweat* 

Personally I love flying...  As in literally... i.e. to be on a plane... Not so much of excitement upon reaching the destination. Haha Weird  huh?

Cabin crew would be the easiest path to get into I guess....

But I reckon being a captain would be more rewarding?

I'm 27 this year... By the time I finish my degree, I would be 30.... hahaha Too old to be a cabin crew neway....

Been looking at some flying classes as well.... should perhaps work towards my private flying license than commercial license and who knows I might be on my way flying a B777 or perhaps A380 lol

***Dream On***

Work or Study?

Done my commencement panel meeting yesterday....

Start cramming for my 6 month report...

Due in Sept...

Oh Well at least I have something extra on top of keeping up with my reading....

Sometimes I wonder....

Why am I here in the first place?

有誰可以告訴我？？？？

許諾與緣分與因緣的關係是甚麼？？？？

那“愛”這一個字是甚麼？？？
















我自己也不曉得。。。

前世今生的因緣。。。。

該怎麼樣去解決？

有甚麼方法去改變？？

難道這樣就把它放棄？？？

我只懂我的心一直期待。。。。

不停得盼望。。。

What to do???

Wahsehhhh

So Cia Lat..... I dunno what to do already.... The scale seems to weigh towards one side and I can't even balance it up >.<

Dunno how lehhhh....

Should I just let it go?
This is just so complicated =(



我與你 － Soundtrack from the movie Three Peas in a Pod

Light bites

Back from TPE - Details to Follow =)

Watched this movie directed by Michelle Chong on the plane yesterday.

3 Peas in a Pod - 他她他

Kinda expected the ending within the first 30 minutes... Nevertheless still a very touching one. Highly recommend it.

Lesson learnt - It's better to express your feeling rather than keeping it for yourself and end up living in remorse =(

Oh Well.... I guess I might as well....Never know what the outcome may be.....

If things do not turn out the way I expect it to be, at least I have tried.....

Trust my gut feeling.